As many of you know, our family just relocated to the Nashville area. Before we left, our church family gathered for a night of worship to send us off. I honestly don’t know if I’ve ever felt so much love! We had the honor of taking the stage with THE most talented & humble group of worship leaders to lift up the name of Jesus & I could barely contain myself! Have you ever wished you could just pause a moment in time? It was a night to remember & cherish…the perfect way to close out a really special chapter in our lives! Doing what I love, standing beside the person I love, looking out at a sea of faces that represent stories and answered prayers and tangible love. Our pastor spoke the kindest words over us and we were completely humbled and blown away by it all!
A reception was held afterwards and honestly, this was the part I was most nervous about. As crazy as it may seem, I really don’t like to be the center of attention. As long as it’s about Jesus, I’m okay but once the focus shifts to me, I get all weird. Aubrey really encouraged me to receive the words each person spoke as a gift & to just let myself take it all in. As family after family lined up to say their goodbyes, I quickly became a big ol’ ball of mush!! I allowed people to express their gratitude and even give me compliments without apologizing!;) As folks shared with me how I had ministered to them, they were speaking life straight into my soul!
As story after story washed over me, I became overwhelmed by one particular thing. God used me here! Through it all, He used me! I had the amazing opportunity to lead these people in worship hundreds of times & there are too many incredible moments & services to count. But through the years, there were times when I wondered if it was worth it. Getting 3 kids ready & then keeping them content during long rehearsals was sometimes stressful. For years, I would nurse my babies between services & try to wipe the spit-up off my shoulder before walking back out on stage to lead for the 4th or 5th time. I felt like I was constantly switching hats and praying that Jesus would somehow speak through my scatter-brained brokenness! And you know what? He did! And I am just so incredibly grateful…grateful that I didn’t give up or stop serving because it got harder with each child. Choosing to serve when we don’t feel like it makes a difference. Our lives are meant to be shared & given away!
As we transition into this new season of the unknown, full of questions & fears, I can look back at how God led us to Texas & kept us there & used our willingness to advance His kingdom. That’s truly all that matters! No matter where I am, I want to be willing to say yes…to lay it all down & run after God with my whole life.
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